My husband lost his job a little over two weeks ago. We have been amazed at how God has taken care of us in a time when we should be frantic, anxious, broke, and scared. We have watched as he has provided in ways that we never thought imaginable. We have felt the love of friends and been encouraged by their words. It is absolutely amazing. We have prayed for the job God wants him to have and for us to stay out of the way so God can work it all out. We have watched our family heal from 5 years of my husband swinging shifts 7 days at a time. We honestly did not realize the depth at which this job had robbed our family of so much. Although we are grateful he had a job for 5 years, it was truly a wilderness experience to say the least. We have prayed that entire 5 years for Glenn to find another job. We wanted him out of where he was, but this is not really how we saw it happening. I have been reminded quite often lately that GOD IS TRULY IN CONTROL!!!
Today, Glenn was suppose to interview with a company that we just knew was not a good fit for us. It would be over an hour drive, 7 days a week work, and always on-call. We just knew that he was not suppose to go. He called them and thanked them for their consideration and told them that he would not be coming for the interview. He also got a call this morning about a temporary job at a company. It would have been MUCH MUCH less money and we would have to supplement in some way. It was also 3rd shift and would have cost us $100/week in gas. We talked about it and he called them and thanked them for the opportunity, but told them that it was not feasible.
Why would we say "no"? I really do not know the answer, but I know this:
Our family has experienced a healing from the damage caused by him being in a bad situation and we don't want to go back. I am leading a Bible Study by James MacDonald, "Lord Change My Attitude". Last week was on doubt. During this time in our lives, it would be easy to fall back to the familiar....doubt. Instead, we are believing that God has a plan and that he will reveal that plan in His timing. We are convinced that a regular 1st shift job where he is at peace is where he needs to be. We are not certain how or when that will happen, but I am convinced that God did not bring him out of the wilderness for him to wonder back into slavery and bondage. James MacDonald asked a question in last week's video that has really stuck with me ever since I watched it: "Do you really think that God would continue to provide manna for the Israelites if they started returning to where they had been?" As I think about this question, I see my husband as being freed from bondage in a bad situation. Why would he go right back into a situation that would be the same or worse? Also, God has met every single need that we have had since this all started and I am not going to panic now.
We truly have a peace. I cannot explain it and I honestly do not recognize my words and actions as being my normal reaction. What I do know is that God is faithful....true...merciful...gracious...loving. He has NEVER failed me or abandoned me, and I do not believe that He will now.