Tonight is the last night of a study that has REALLY impacted my life! James MacDonald's "Lord, Change My Attitude" has been a wonderful study. Tonight, we eat and watch the epilogue video. Hard to believe that the 11 weeks have gone by so quickly, yet I have learned SOOOO much. I do not want to live my life in a wilderness. I do not want to be seen as a murmuring woman. I want to have a thankful, content, loving, faithful, and submissive attitude in all that I do and say. I do not want to complain, covet, criticize, doubt, or rebel. I want to take what I have learned from this study and allow God to change me.
I was the leader of this study and found it to be a very humbling experience. I had big shoes to fill with our former leader moving away. I knew that we had different styles and personalities. I wanted to effectively lead but with my own God-given quirks and personality. I think, in the end, I was able to do that, but I am still overwhelmed that God chose me to do this.
Here is what I have learned:
(1) If I choose to murmur as a lifestyle, I will spend my lifetime in a wilderness.
(2) I absolutely choose my attitude
(3) My pattern of thinking determines my attitude
(4) When I am faced with something, I need to know that God is COMPLETELY in control
That being said, let me share with you what I dealt with during these 11 weeks of this study:
(1) I had a severe jaw issue that left me in excruciating pain at the beginning of the study
(I was blessed to get relief with a bite guard that I now wear at night)
(2) A couple of weeks into the study, my daughter and I were home alone and an intruder came in on us. (We were blessed to have been kept safe....but it was scary to say the least)
(3) My husband lost his job where he had been for 5 years and was out of work for 3 weeks.
(He was blessed to find a job within that time that allows him to work a regular shift and to be home on the weekends)
Through all of this, I knew that God was teaching me additional lessons from this study. It has been a challenging 11 weeks, but it has been a blessing (even the hard stuff). God is good, and if we choose to NOT murmur, there are blessings to reap. I am blessed to be ending this study the week of Thanksgiving and I have MANY things to be thankful for.